It is that time of the year when I reflect on what the many years of partnership and marriage mean to me. My relationship with Saathi is a work in progress, one that evolves with time and circumstances. As the both of us navigate middle age and its attendant problems, it is easy to take each other for granted, to assume that we have made it thus far, therefore we will make it all the way through.
The last year for me has been an exercise in letting go. I have let go of the ideal in my head, the kind of person I want my spouse to be and in turn embraced the person he is. In doing so, I have also given myself grace and permission to let go of the kind of spouse I was trying to be and own the kind of person I am in this relationship. A large part of this change has been the difficult process of letting go of everything I know about being a wife and partner and embracing a new definition of what I want the future to be like.
There is peace in this culling. There is happiness in just being. There is joy in relishing each others company as a choice. There is love that remains when all else has faded.
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