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Don’t Leave Yet
Around 4:45 pm one Saturday evening, our family of five stood at the intersection of two roads, by a fenced in parking lot, five of many in a winding line waiting for the doors to the Fillmore Philadelphia to open. It was windy, our light jackets just about enough to keep us from being too…
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Only For A Moment
Most mornings for me lately start with a playlist of Eric Nam’s music. I hum as I cook, do dishes, pack lunches or walk around the house. The lyrics take me to places I haven’t been in a long, long time. They wake up parts of me that have been sleeping for decades. I imagine…
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Another Summer In The Books
I walked back home after watching my youngest board the school bus for her first day of fourth grade. What was most noticeable was the absence of the sense of excitement I usually have on the first day of the school year. Ambivalence. I think the term ambivalence can sum up my existence for most…
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Hidden Love – Slow, Sweet and, Sure
In the midst of a kdrama slump, aimless browsing of Netflix threw up this cdrama called Hidden Love that was on air meaning I couldn’t binge it even if I wanted to. I started this show with no expectations and it remains now one of my favorite chinese dramas ever. The story starts when the…
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Sillier, Gigglier Me
Earlier this morning I sat with my middle child on a low bench giggling over some silly BTS edit. My face was flushed, my smile stretched from ear to ear. I felt light and giddy. My laugh was loud. My husband who was watching something serious on TV turned to look at me. It hit…
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A Good Word
Jimin’s Like Crazy crooned in my ear as I walked this morning. My youngest sat on the sofa earnestly playing some game on her phone. Her hair was tousled, her complexion smooth. “You are beautiful!” I mouthed as I walked past. Over the course of the morning, I tried to recall the number of times…
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Pontificating On Happiness
I bite into my sandwich and for a moment I feel the texture of the bread in my hands. I notice the sponginess, the pores on the surface, the color of what I eat. I hear the hum of the various electric appliances in the kitchen. It blows my mind, this acute awareness of all…
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Letting Go – Anniversary Edition
It is that time of the year when I reflect on what the many years of partnership and marriage mean to me. My relationship with Saathi is a work in progress, one that evolves with time and circumstances. As the both of us navigate middle age and its attendant problems, it is easy to take…
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Baby #ARMY steps
The opening music to the next song on my playlist as I walk is familiar. I know the name I think and open up my music app to find out. I nod to myself as the childish joy of finding a song I enjoy play, spreads through my being. My steps are jaunty, my head…
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Traveling Light – Mom Edition
Last Wednesday, I woke up at an ungodly hour of 3:00 am and got ready quickly to be dropped off at our local airport. I was flying across the country to meet a bunch of my friends, some of whom I last saw when I left high school in 1993. Yeah! I know I am…