Category: Reflections
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Jungkook Over Jagannatha?
I am bopping to I Wonder by JHope ft Jungkook as I savor my ghee toasted bread this morning when Amma eyeing me from across the island goes “You used to listen to Vishnu Sahasranamam every morning even loudly singing along…” The wistfulness in her voice tinged with passive aggressiveness makes me pause. I am…
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Why I am Dope Old ARMY
Fri(end)s by V has been playing on loop since 5:30 am on a Friday in my home. My usually patient husband is on the verge of losing it when he gives in and starts humming along. “Take a video of me vibing to this song.” I say. I am dancing and making pasta while imagining…
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Only For A Moment
Most mornings for me lately start with a playlist of Eric Nam’s music. I hum as I cook, do dishes, pack lunches or walk around the house. The lyrics take me to places I haven’t been in a long, long time. They wake up parts of me that have been sleeping for decades. I imagine…
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Sillier, Gigglier Me
Earlier this morning I sat with my middle child on a low bench giggling over some silly BTS edit. My face was flushed, my smile stretched from ear to ear. I felt light and giddy. My laugh was loud. My husband who was watching something serious on TV turned to look at me. It hit…
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A Good Word
Jimin’s Like Crazy crooned in my ear as I walked this morning. My youngest sat on the sofa earnestly playing some game on her phone. Her hair was tousled, her complexion smooth. “You are beautiful!” I mouthed as I walked past. Over the course of the morning, I tried to recall the number of times…
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Pontificating On Happiness
I bite into my sandwich and for a moment I feel the texture of the bread in my hands. I notice the sponginess, the pores on the surface, the color of what I eat. I hear the hum of the various electric appliances in the kitchen. It blows my mind, this acute awareness of all…
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Mom – Primary Identity
“Third grade dance group”, “Bus xx group” are few of the active WhatsApp groups on my phone. I scroll through the list and barring a couple of groups that serve as a neighborhood water cooler, the rest are tangentially or directly related to my identity as mom. The messages that get traded here have to…
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Resume – Life
I stood mindlessly sorting clothes from the bin and, putting them away into six different shelves when it hit me that the most profound changes in my life have been internal. In astro-speak, twelfth house stuff. Even as I mulled over how much mental paradigm shifts have affected my everyday life and interactions, I got…
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Devolve. Disconnect. Dissolve.
This has been years in the making I guess. This week, I watched passively as a group I am in made plans to organize something. In the past, I would have been eager, loud and passionate about being the architect of such plans. This time, I watched, a little amused, unaffected by what was happening.…
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The Rocking Fifties
This week has been one for milestone birthdays, twenty fifth wedding anniversaries and other time markers that has me thinking. People of my age are at a cusp in their lives as they stare at empty nests and retirement in the not so distant future. As I walked around my home this morning striding to…