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Purity Tests
Photo by Daniel Trylski on Pexels.com A week ago, I sat in a theater watching a documentary that was uplifting, hopeful and just joyous. Yet, there were a bunch of people belonging to the same fandom as I do, who were hell bent on ‘canceling’ the creators and in the process invalidating the voices in…
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Serenading The Fandom: Forever We Are Young
Last night my three daughters and I sat in a smallish theater surrounded by fellow BTS fans and watched BTS ARMY: Forever We Are Young, a documentary on the global fandom that is the BTS ARMY. A few months ago when this well made documentary premiered at SXSW, my interest was piqued. I figured I…
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Reconsider. Reformat. Reframe.
Photo by Phil Hearing on Unsplash This year will be sixteen years since I set down the path to grow my family through adoption. I have written on my blog, talked about it in interviews, ranted on social media and now, share my story on the big screen. The only constant through it all has…
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Menopause And All That Jazz
“You smell like lifesavers…” Laddu leans into me before she heads upstairs to bed. The Volini cream I have on my shoulders anoints me with the smell of camphor and menthol. I let Laddu go after giving her a tight squeeze. My arms hurt. My shoulders hurt. I turn my swivel chair to face my…
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From Blog to Substack: A New Chapter Begins
With Love Chaos Kin having premiered, it feels like my writing/sharing journey has come full circle. I started micro-blogging somewhere between 2001 and 2003 and writing fairly regularly from 2004 on. What started as daily posts featuring stream of consciousness rants morphed into deep rumination of the state of my world. Writing about infertility and…
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Corrugation
My aching feet long for the warm water despite it being summer. I am in the shower and looking at the water cascading from the shower head when on impulse I look up. The cover that shields the plumbing from the onlookers eyes is loose. I reach up to adjust it and notice the rough…
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Crossovers I Didn’t Expect
“… my little soda pop…” I am humming as I get ready to log in. The entire soundtrack of K-Pop Demon Hunters has been on loop this past week. The songs work well in the movie and work even better as an album to play on repeat. I am not even sure when was the…
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Its Gonna Be Okay
I could be watching the next episode of the show (Reborn) I am currently watching. Instead, I am sitting, mid afternoon, with the sun a tad too harsh through the mullioned windows of our family room, watching Felix chase a ball round and round. I am cracking up with laughter as are my girls. It…
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Breaching New Frontiers
“You can get drunk as much as you want to…” Ammu says playfully in conversation where her dad and I talk about her and her twin getting their learner’s permits and eventually their drivers license. “Ani! Neva…” I call out laughing as I do and head back to my oasis that is my study. “True!…