Dark Night Of The Soul

I am broken.

I am not surprised or even shocked by the election results. I definitely wanted, hoped, prayed for a Harris Walz victory. What I feel today is not the devastation I felt in 2016 after Clinton lost. I was blindsided then. Today, it felt like my worst fears came true. I watched the results trickle in and when my home state of Pennsylvania was called for the other guy, I called it a night.

All day long, I have been thinking, processing and feeling sad about what the future of America will look like. We often talk about the fall of civilizations in the distant past. The feeling I have now is that of watching the last dregs of this empire crumbling. A newer far more divided society will emerge. One that will look vastly different. I do not know how deep the impact on local communities and vulnerable population will be. I do not know how much longer before marriage equality will be on the chopping block. All I know is that my heart hurts today. It hurts for all of those people who poured themselves in what they believed in and came up short.

Tonight I will be holding my tribe close and giving myself time to grieve.

Tomorrow, I will dust myself off and figure out what next.

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