Category: Feelings
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Cypress Pearl Green. Evergreen.
I laid eyes on her nine years ago in the dead of the night. The following morning pulling at the seatbelt for the first time ever, I sat in the passenger seat a proud bride beside her newly wedded husband. We drove to ShopRite on what was our first every grocery shopping of our married…
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Too much information?
Lakshmi asked: How did you convince yourself to share so much of your private life with all, I mean EVERY ONE? Ever struggle with it at all? I admire you – its not easy to do it. I have to admit this question took me by surprise. Not so because it is so pointed but…
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Strange! This life of mine.
Walking into the store with Kay perched on my hips and my mom following with Cee clinging to her, I looked around for a cart and effortlessly wiped down the cart handle and the seating area for the kids before plonking them down and strapping the seat belts in. Pushing the twins in a cart, the…
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Letters from a daughter to her father
Dear Appa, I woke up this morning to the sight of two mottai kutties facing each other across from their cribs and having an animated conversation about who-knows-what. As I plonked them down for their morning feed, Amma held two bottles feeding both kids while I made myself a cup of strong filter coffee. Thoughts of you assailed my…
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Blurring the lines
One windy afternoon in the early 1990’s, I tied raakhi to my close friend in college. At the time I did that I did not give it much thought other than to express my affection for this big burly friend and perhaps expected a kit kat or dairy milk in exchange. The look in his…
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Arbitrary thoughts
In a precious few hours, my amma will be here. Laden with goodies for Kay and Cee and my siblings and I, she will step off the car a shy smile changing her face into something that will be etched in memory. For years I have longed to welcome amma home as paati. This will be yet another…
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Just believe!
In the silence of the afternoon tapping on my keyboard catching up on my emails as is my habit now when the girls nap, I felt the room get chillier. Pushing off the impulse to get up and get a sweater, I kept at the computer till I crossed that break point and reluctantly closed…
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One week hence
Today marks one week of the girls homecoming. There are moments like now when the house is silent save the keystrokes and the even breathing filtering in through the baby monitor when I wonder if this is my life I am leading. Not in my wildest dreams did I think come February 2010, I’d be…
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Missing the safety net
Most of my life the adventures I signed up for had a safety net. The gamble was calculated and risk mostly known ahead of time and in my tolerance range. Occasionally there would be the time when my restless mind would feel an impulse to jump. I would peer into the depths knowing I will…
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It’s all about love
Love you! I exclaimed brightly just as I hung up the phone after talking to my sister to wish her. I sensed a moment of hesitation, an eye roll and a smile as she replied Thank you and not love you back. Sometimes I do it on purpose. Like to my mom, I say Love…