The earliest entries here were written around a workday: on the train into Philadelphia, at a desk between meetings, in the minutes before the children woke. Banking paid the bills then. The writing lived in the margins, and most of it was about the job itself. The commute. The cubicle. The performance review.
In September 2012, I quit. You can watch it happen in these pages: the restlessness, the leap, the strange first Monday at home. The years after asked their own questions. Who am I without a business card? If no one pays for my day, does it count? What do I want my daughters to learn about ambition?
Fourteen years of writing sit below: the MBA semesters, the quitting, the staying home, the slow finding of other work worth doing. I did not know I was telling one story. It reads like one now.
Start at the top for the office years. The chronology carries the argument.
The Office Years (2009–2012)
- Apr 2009 · On a day like today
- Oct 2009 · Mundane. Boring. Blah.
- May 2010 · Relatively speaking
- Jul 2010 · Climbing the ladder
- Sep 2010 · Stirrings of unrest
- Sep 2010 · The Outliers
- Dec 2010 · A door closes
- Jan 2011 · An upside down world
- Mar 2011 · Slowing down
- Mar 2011 · Pointless thoughts
- May 2011 · Battle clouds in my brain
- Aug 2011 · Random, connected thoughts
- Aug 2011 · Feminism. Hmm!
- Sep 2011 · It’s over. Finally!
- Oct 2011 · So, what CAN we do?
- Oct 2011 · It’s not personal. Really!
- Oct 2011 · Music, Muses
- Nov 2011 · My personal truth
- Jan 2012 · Wake up and smell the roses
- Jan 2012 · Reflections on the rearview
- Jan 2012 · Ode to kindness
- Feb 2012 · API – Nuggets to chew on
- Feb 2012 · What’s in a title?
- Mar 2012 · LMT – Being noticed
- May 2012 · Ache
- Jun 2012 · Those shoes
- Jul 2012 · Summer of discontent
- Jul 2012 · Deferred Dreams
- Aug 2012 · Stark reality
The Leap (2012–2014)
- Sep 2012 · Room with a view
- Mar 2013 · Taking stock
- Jul 2013 · Breaking the holding pattern
- Sep 2014 · Gendered Decisions
- Oct 2014 · Wrapping up
The Years at Home (2015–2017)
- Apr 2015 · Journey. Not a destination.
- Aug 2015 · It’s a mom’s life!
- Aug 2015 · Recalibration
- Oct 2015 · Saying grace
- Apr 2016 · The Unbalanced Life
- Dec 2017 · Mommy. Maami.
Worth, Reconsidered (2018–2023)
- Apr 2018 · Evaluating Worth
- Nov 2018 · Epiphany: You Hold The Keys In Your Hand
- Dec 2018 · Walking In Place
- Jan 2019 · Leaning In
- Apr 2019 · Oh, The Memories!
- Sep 2019 · The Color Of Regret
- Apr 2023 · Resume – Life