COVID-19 Diaries: Dilemma

Photo by Nandhu Kumar on Pexels.com I lace up Laddu's new hi-top shoes. She tests them out tentatively. I force a fleece jacket on top of her already cozy top. Her school bag is heavy. Her literature anthologies, fundations journals, composition books, iPad, charger, water bottle and lunch box weigh her down. She is ready … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Dilemma

COVID-19 Diaries: Battle Weary

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com It's Friday. My oldest is sitting next to me, her earbuds plugged in, her school iPad screen reflected on her glasses. I am amused. She is supposed to working on a diagnostic. I watch her swap screens to youtube and call her out. At this point, I am just weary … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Battle Weary

COVID-19 Diaries: Rollback

Photo by Pedro Figueras on Pexels.com Late afternoon yesterday, I swapped out the static page I have on my blog from the book landing page to my regular About page. It was bittersweet. From the beginning of the year, I counted down to my book release. I made plans and unmade them. The adrenalin rush … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Rollback

COVID-19 Diaries: Baking Away The Blues

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com Earlier this year in May, when COVID had just taken on the pandemic status and we were all bound to our homes, Instagram convinced me that I was missing out on life because I was not baking. Most of my baking over the years has been restricted to one of … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Baking Away The Blues

COVID-19 Diaries: The Demands of Virtual School

Photo by Karolina Grabowska on Pexels.com My fingers are almost frost-bitten by the time I am back from my early morning walk. We went from tee shirt weather to winter like cold over a day. The sun is an eerie orange ball on my evening walk. Despite the cold and the bitterness of the wind … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: The Demands of Virtual School

COVID-19 Diaries: Virtual School

Photo by August de Richelieu on Pexels.com It is late Monday morning. It is also a long weekend. I should be cooking, instead I am seated at the breakfast table, two iPads, two dated planners next to me, my Macbook open to a spreadsheet, my iPhone showing me the schedule for the child whose planner … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Virtual School

COVID-19 Diaries: Back To School 2020 Edition

I woke to a home smelling of coffee and a child already awake and excited. By 6:30 am, Pattu and I set out on a walk around the development. I walked slowly, savoring the chill breeze and the warm sun's rays. Pattu was clearly thrilled. She jumped, skipped and danced as we wound our way … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Back To School 2020 Edition

COVID-19 Diaries: In A Rut

Photo by Tomas Anunziata on Pexels.com Life post book release has gone from adrenaline highs, early morning zoom calls and, signing books to thinking of it all in the past. Work is busy. The children are starting online school in less than a week. Our routine is predictable most days. I wake early, have kaapi … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: In A Rut

COVID-19 Diaries: Past Midway Point

Photo by Candid Shots on Pexels.com I casually look at the calendar one morning and I am taken aback we are in August already. August spells back to school, Fall, cooler weather, and festival season. In any other year, this would have been when I am scouring back to school lists, actively networking to find … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Past Midway Point

COVID-19 Diaries: Back to School Rumblings

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com This week the school district my children are part of voted on a plan for the fall. Kids stay home until November. Then, they revisit the guidelines at that time, evaluate the safety of students and teachers and make a decision. The board meeting was telecast live. I tuned it … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Back to School Rumblings

COVID-19 Diaries: Cleaning

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com My calf muscles and hamstrings are sore from bending over one too many times. This time I am on my knees and elbows reaching for a hard to reach inflated ball that is wedged right in the middle of the futon width. I let out a string of curses knowing … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Cleaning

COVID-19 Diaries: It Takes A Village

Photo by Bruno Cervera on Pexels.com I woke up at 2:45 am to news that Amma will be discharged Friday. By the time I brushed and checked messages again, I learned she would be going home today. The following hour was manic. Phone lines buzzed between continents. Friends and family worked in tandem to make … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: It Takes A Village

COVID-19 Diaries: A Lull

Photo by ArtHouse Studio on Pexels.com I woke today to news that Amma may be discharged in a day or two. Panic set in. Was she really okay? What if she got sent home and her condition worsened? How will we manage to clean the home and make it ready in a day? What preparation … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: A Lull

COVID-19 Diaries: Glimmers of Hope

Photo by Dominika Roseclay on Pexels.com I am on a work call. I am distracted by incoming messages. At some point, I request the rest of the day off and focus on the messages on my phone instead. There are different sets. One with Amma. One with my siblings. One for my medically competent friends. … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Glimmers of Hope

COVID-19 Diaries: Doom

Photo by Tyler Lastovich on Pexels.com My right eye twitches. I press my finger on the jumping nerve to still it. Tears poke behind my eyelids. My eyes burn. I am feeling feverish from a lack of sleep and running on adrenaline for two weeks now. My phone lights up with a notification. An extended … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Doom

COVID-19 Diaries: Longing

Photo by Pixabay on Pexels.com It is past bedtime but the five of us are crowded around my laptop peering into the screen. My siblings and their families are in small rectangles on the display. It is chaotic. It is loud. We sing off key as my niece cuts her birthday cake. The whole meeting … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Longing

COVID-19 Diaries: Reminiscences

Jackfruit. The item remained on our shared grocery list for weeks. Each grocery trip, my finger would hover over it, tempted to strike it off knowing how rare it is to find it locally. Yet, it would stay, a reminder of how random cravings for things from my past can take hold and not let … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Reminiscences

COVID-19 Diaries: Anniversary

Photo by Văn Thắng on Pexels.com Nineteen years is a long time. It is even when you factor in the first few years when you are getting to know the person, the next few years when you are struggling to build a family, the years after that are consumed by nurturing this hard-built family. We … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Anniversary

COVID-19 Diaries: Politics, Race, Children

There is a pain between my shoulder blades that is nagging. It has been a week. I lower myself to the ground so my upper back can find something firm to rest upon. My kaapi is by the side. I snack on cheese curls as I scroll through my feed. Hasan Minhaj’s video has been … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Politics, Race, Children

COVID-19 Diaries: Ceding Control

Waiting. This word in itself sums up the entirety of my existence these days. I am waiting for many things. Sometimes, it feels like all of my life is one big wait for something to happen. Everything is scripted in my head, the joys, the grief, the anticipation, the highs, the lows. It is frozen … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Ceding Control

COVID-19 Diaries: Jugaad

I am in the bedroom browsing through my phone when I hear Laddu’s voice. “Mommy, my glasses broke.” It takes a minute to register. “What do you mean broke? Broke?” The questions swirled. How? When? Who? In the end, I inspected the glasses, pronounced it dead. The lack of emotion, the lack of panic. The … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Jugaad