I scroll through my twitter feed, aimless, bored. I hit the search button and key in #Jayalalithaa the results stream in reiterating the same things from the last time I searched about an hour ago. I am fascinated. I am obsessed. I am morbidly curious. In 1999, my Appa lay in the same hospital in […]
Read moreOn marriages, love and excuses
Seated across the office at the children’s school for a small talk on adoption (a whole another post altogether) being a means to build a family, I engaged in conversation with the administrator. It started simply enough with her advising a colleague about dresses on sale at David’s Bridal. “You only wear it once!” she […]
Read moreLife is whizzing past…
Ever get that feeling that you are caught on the median with vehicles flying past both ways wondering if the pace will ever let up leaving you with space to cross? I’ve felt that way for a couple of days now. I feel like everything is flying past me and I have to catch up […]
Read moreTired of it all
Tired of the BS. Tired of waiting. Tired of being miss goody two shoes. Tired of having the right attitude. Tired of looking at the best in life. Tired of pushing down the overwhelming pain in my gut. Tired of being sunny. I give up. I know. I know. It is a phase. Things will […]
Read moreStruggling with words
An idea struck me at work while helping a friend. I was in the middle of something and could not take the time to pin the words down. Through the day I wrote and rewrote it in my mind. Finally in the middle of making lunch the next morning, I translated part of it to […]
Read moreStereotypes, Songs and Musings
Listening to this song from Autograph, I was mesmerized by the voices of the people singing it and lost in memories of watching this movie with K when a couple of lines I was humming along jumped out at me. The harmony was lost and my train of thoughts went down a different path. Actually […]
Read moreWhen the joke is on you
Stepping outside a friend’s home yesterday night, I bid bye and one of the guys said something to mock my tambram lingo. I ignored it to the image of the rest of them laughing good naturedly as we left. All the way home, it burned in the back of my head. I argued with K […]
Read moreEntitlement
All my life I grew up feeling entitled to a whole lot of things like a happy childhood, loving parents, a roof over my head, clothes the way I wanted it. You name it. In the natural progression of things dictated by what my peers did, I felt entitled and more often than not, got […]
Read moreAwkward Pauses
Walking down the corridor that leads to my classroom, I passed several of my new classmates. Smiling vaguely and waving Hi I reached and found ‘my’ seat unoccupied in the second to last row of the room. Finding my teammate M already there, I heaved a sigh of relief. She was one person I did […]
Read moreWhat Will Others Say?
“Our neighbour has invited me to receive thamboolam…” said my mom and trailed off. I could visualize what the rest of her sentence would look like. I wanted her to go of course but the conversation eventually wound up with “What will others say?” This is typical of most of the conversations I have with […]
Read moreMellowed down?
Watching K drive away for his regular Saturday cricket matches, I picked up the phone to call my mom like I usually do. Half an hour later enthused by reaching out to mom, I scanned the list of people in my address book and worked my way down. I called most people I wanted to […]
Read moreWhy not me?
A few minutes back, K forwarded an email containing baby pictures from a common friend. I looked at the pictures, duly wrote a response and realized I was annoyed. Before anyone jumps to conclusions, I was annoyed because the friend in question really was my ex-colleague. I was miffed that I was not copied on […]
Read moreMy calendar is full!
Yes. I was looking at my calendar this morning and realized from this weekend through mid September I know what I am doing every single day of the week. It is unnerving. I know it is true for most of us but some how the realization is bothering me. Is that how I was growing […]
Read moreMay they rot in hell!!!
I logged in to chat with my mom early this morning like I sometimes do and she said “Bangalore rocked by bomb blasts.” My first reaction was to blank out. The IISc blasts are still fresh in memory considering K is an IISc alumnus and it affected him deeply. Channeling my energies into finding out […]
Read moreWhen?
When I read articles like this one that appeared on CNN today it irks me no end. Not only because it portrays India in a bad light but because with one generalization, the media paints over a broad spectrum of people. With a country as populous as India, there are bound to be pockets where […]
Read moreDealing with cards you have been dealt
Early yesterday morning I heard from my friend of two years that she had been let go. It took me more than a minute to understand what she was saying. The first question that crossed my mind was “Why?” Why indeed? For years, we have heard of people we know go through it. Yesterday was […]
Read moreAre some things fated to happen?
Two years back bitten by the academia bug I made an appointment with Penn State Student counselors to figure out if I had enough credentials to take up a Masters program at their suburban campus. The lady who met with me looked at my transcripts and degree and waved breezily in the air remarking that […]
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