Stark reality

In the past few months, a new kind of fixation has taken hold of me. Articles on how women can have it all, cannot have it all, should have it all, should not have it all. All parts of the spectrum have been written, blogged, discussed ad nauseam. As I read each one, I nod … Continue reading Stark reality

Integration? What integration?

Reading MM's post and associated comments made my thoughts go many different ways. I formulated comment upon comment in my mind but realized there was no cogency to my thoughts. Instead of spewing half baked rubbish on her blog, I figured I might as well use this space to put my thoughts out. I agree … Continue reading Integration? What integration?

Unity in Diversity. Or not?

For the longest time, this was one phrase that was representative of India for me. I am not sure if I picked it up from TV or if it was in my History or Geography books in school. Or perhaps the Ek Chidiya, Anek Chidiya short that was screened on Doordarshan. Whatever the origins of … Continue reading Unity in Diversity. Or not?


Imagine this. All your life growing up, you took it for granted that you'd grow up, go to college, get a job, get married, build a career, have babies, go through mid life crisis, lose your parents and retire. If somewhere in this list, you hit a glitch, how do you cope? You look around … Continue reading Clueless.

A different way of looking at things

These days, I watch ads on TV with a keen eye. Instead of the aesthetic appreciation that used to be foremost for me earlier, I dig deeper. I look for what message they are trying to push. Are they selling me a product, an idea, a perception? What is the intention behind the 30 second … Continue reading A different way of looking at things

Struggling with words

An idea struck me at work while helping a friend. I was in the middle of something and could not take the time to pin the words down. Through the day I wrote and rewrote it in my mind. Finally in the middle of making lunch the next morning, I translated part of it to … Continue reading Struggling with words

Inertia and excitement

My third term starts tomorrow. My textbook is here and I should be rearing to go right? Instead I feel inertia. After a two week break that included no studying and catching up on TV shows, I am almost resentful that I have to spend time preparing for class and working on assignments. I know … Continue reading Inertia and excitement

How often is often enough?

Let's go to New Jersey this weekend I said. K nodded. Pausing a bit, he asked "Whom do you want to meet?" Reeling off a couple of names, I bit back my tongue and said I did not want to meet everyone we usually did. For the next few minutes, I went into detail of … Continue reading How often is often enough?

Is this what they call a cultural difference?

Scratching my head with the back of a pencil I was stumped. I had no idea what was causing my test case to fail. Taking a deep breath I decided to start over. Even before I executed code, I went over the code visually. There had to be something I was missing. The blinking IM … Continue reading Is this what they call a cultural difference?

Channeling negativity

Waking up after a rather short but restful sleep, I felt oodles better than the night before. It had been class night and I returned home in a rather sour mood after I had received my paper after grading. I thought I had done well but the instructor obviously did not share my view and … Continue reading Channeling negativity

Favorite movie, book and music artist

Think - and write down your favorite movie, book and music artist of all times said the whiteboard as I walked into class on Tuesday. Settling down in my chair I noticed people gathered in groups discussing football or television shows. Some were focused intently on their laptops. Looking around, I found no one free. … Continue reading Favorite movie, book and music artist

When the joke is on you

Stepping outside a friend's home yesterday night, I bid bye and one of the guys said something to mock my tambram lingo. I ignored it to the image of the rest of them laughing good naturedly as we left. All the way home, it burned in the back of my head. I argued with K … Continue reading When the joke is on you

Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year!

Exchanging pleasantries with my childhood friend over IM this morning I was telling her how kiddishly excited I was with my birthday around the corner. She promptly said "Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year!" reminding me of a skit we presented in our colony on Christmas day. This friend of mine is a very … Continue reading Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year!

Nearly three years – That is what it takes…

Walking to my desk this morning, I smiled and let a lady go ahead of me. Crossing another balding gentleman, I waved a hi! and struggled up the stairs. Crossing the kitchen, I noticed a bunch of people with coffee mugs and I realized I knew each one of them by name. Suddenly it hit … Continue reading Nearly three years – That is what it takes…

Morbidly fascinating

There are some things that fascinate me. Most of them are morbid. Like Snakes. And Death. A couple of days back, K and I watched this documentary on TV. It was a movie called The Bridge and it was about people falling to their deaths from the Golden Gate bridge. Suicides. Watching person after person … Continue reading Morbidly fascinating


All my life I grew up feeling entitled to a whole lot of things like a happy childhood, loving parents, a roof over my head, clothes the way I wanted it. You name it. In the natural progression of things dictated by what my peers did, I felt entitled and more often than not, got … Continue reading Entitlement

Expressions of love

It's class night tonight and I drove myself to work. K and I started around the same time and pulled into work one behind the other. As I picked up my handbag, my lunch bag and my school laptop in a bulky bag of its own, he stood by smiling. Every time he has offered … Continue reading Expressions of love

Awkward Pauses

Walking down the corridor that leads to my classroom, I passed several of my new classmates. Smiling vaguely and waving Hi I reached and found ‘my’ seat unoccupied in the second to last row of the room. Finding my teammate M already there, I heaved a sigh of relief. She was one person I did … Continue reading Awkward Pauses

Being Brown. Being Connected.

Madhuram and Shy both had linked back to the murder-suicide in LA by an Indian American man. I resisted writing about it because I was still processing it in my mind. On the afternoon of Oct 6th, Sepia Mutiny wrote about this tragedy. For someone who reads most of the posts on there, I skipped … Continue reading Being Brown. Being Connected.

Yes, Yeah or Ya?

Stepping out of the room in which our weekly status meetings are held, I couldn't help noticing the way different people responded to questions that required a simple yes or no. Most people on my team have this habit of saying "Yeah" when they mean "Yes". And somehow that bothers me. Not sure why. May … Continue reading Yes, Yeah or Ya?

Fall is coming! Fall is coming!

That's right! About three hours from now, we will officially be in the fall season here this side of the globe. There is something solid and reassuring about knowing the exact date and time of the change. For days now, I have been ignoring the dry patches on my leg. Body lotion was for fall. … Continue reading Fall is coming! Fall is coming!