Life, Mom's life, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting

Inured

My desk has stacks of paper. Yellow envelopes filled with sheets I need to fill, a checklist of largely unchecked items, bills that need follow up, a snowman with one arm and a caption that says I’d melt for you. Each day, I sit at my desk, focusing solely on the words on the screen. […]

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Aware parenting, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting

Parenting: A Guilt Trap?

It was 1:30 PM, that time of the day when I prioritize napping over everything else when the phone rang. The caller id flashed a familiar number. I paused, considered letting it go to voicemail and then picked it up. We spoke about a great number of things but the bulk of our conversation was […]

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Daughters, Kids, Love, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting

When I am Gone

She flicks a tear from her cheek, her nervous laugh a cover for unexpected emotion. Pattu reaches out, her fingers lacing themselves through mine. Ammu is on my lap, her neck nestled in the crook of my neck and shoulder. She nuzzles, her cheeks wet with tears. I am overwhelmed. By the tears. By the […]

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Life, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting, Personal, reflections

A Good Parent

The timer on the microwave went off signaling it was time for me to leave. I turned the stove off shouting a thousand instructions at the kids, the spouse and my mom as I left. I opted to take the longer, winding back roads to the kid’s school. The radio was on and the ethics […]

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Children, Life, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting

Sisters, Forever.

They sit side by side, their blonde locks sticking up with the static in the air. They leave a trail of hats, winter jackets, gloves and scarfs from the door to the kitchen. I lay their school bags between them and me, a buffer that gives me time to really wake from my nap and […]

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Blues, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting

Beating The Blues, Tomorrow.

I walk in after dropping my youngest daughter at daycare. I see evidence of the morning rush near the shoe rack. Shoes strewn all over. I am tempted to put them back in order but I move on. I open the door only to stumble on a half naked doll by the cedar chest housing […]

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Aware parenting, Musings, Parenthood, Parenting

The Friendship Dynamic

“You have American friends! It is OK for Indians to be friends with Americans?” Pattu is at the kitchen island sipping warm milk with honey when she makes a statement that is posed as a question. Thrown for a loop, I wonder why she is pontificating on deep questions early in the morning. It takes […]

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Musings, Parenthood

Quantifying parenthood!

Pre Kay and Cee, weekends looked like this: 8:30 – 9:00 – Wake up possibly 9:30 – 1:00 – Cook and eat if in the mood else go out 1:00 – 6:30 – Kill time (TV/Books/MBA) 6:30 – 10:00 – Browse, eat, call up friends 10:00 – 11:00 – Try to sleep Post Kay and […]

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Home, Life, Parenthood, Twins

Learning on the go

Stepping out my shower, I heard Amma’s voice unusually calm asking “Are you done? Please come out. Cee is bleeding.”. My heart jumped into my throat. Imagining the worst, I was out as soon as I could to see Amma holding a rather bloodied child. Her face was smeared with dried blood. Her hands stained […]

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Family, Life, Parenthood, Twins

Doing away with the rose tints

10:30 PM – Call it a day 11:30 PM – Sounds of Cee crying. Wonder if I should let her cry it out. 11:35 PM – Pick Cee up from her crib and bring her back to my room. 11:45 PM – Cee looks sleepy and ready to go back. Kay wakes up crying 11:47 […]

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