Category: Musings
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Because I can
“Why did you arrange the mugs at this end?” asked a visibly annoyed K trying to bring order to the chaos that was our dishwasher. Smiling and winking I said “because I can?”. The rest of the exchange is immaterial but the phrase “because I can” is symbolic of where I am right now. I…
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Climbing the ladder
This past week I have been privy to an email discussion between K and his friends that was rather enjoyable. What started as an innocuous question on staying on the technical path vs aspiring to go up the management chain soon changed tracks into rather philosophical observations. What the conversation did however was to stir…
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I give up!
Ok. Am giving up the pretense of trying to stay away. A break ain’t no break unless I really stay away. So shamelessly here I am posting again. Haven’t figured out what to say yet but I know I won’t feel compelled to post too often. For now, the blog is back to being public…
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Our Adoption Story
It was late night one Thursday in January that a number flashed on our home phone that was strange and familiar at the same time. You see, only a month before that call we were very close to bringing a baby home that did not happen at the last moment. Understandably I was very upset…
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No middle ground
Running behind Kay in the crowded space that was my brother’s home celebrating my niece’s birthday, I passed a girl whose face looked familiar. Smiling in my rush, I continued on and finally caught Kay before she put her hand in the trash can. Scooping her up, I looked for a space to rest my…
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Memories of a distant past
Revelling in the fact that we had internet, phone and TV after a 3 day hiatus, I eagerly checked voicemail. After sorting through cold marketing calls, a note from my doc office reminding me of an appointment, I was left with one from strange number from New York. Wondering who it could be I played…
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Things we take for granted
Looking outside the tinted glass windows at work, I saw that the storm had passed and the sun was breaking through the clouds. Leaving a tad earlier than usual, I had a smile playing on my lips that comes from doing something impulsive. I noticed traffic seemed heavier than usual. Thirty minutes later, on a…
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Craving change
A little past 8:00 PM with kids in bed, Amma and sis out for a walk and K was cutting vegetables. I stood by the sink and looked at the semi filled dishwasher and felt a wave of resentment wash over me. Suddenly everything felt old. I had this incredible urge to just throw away…
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Just saying
I have mulled over my identity many times on here in the past. It is one of those recurring themes in my subconscious. Sometime in the past few weeks, K pinged me in IM. “you write well” he said simply. No explanations or reasoning behind the statement. It struck me how much I valued his…
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A mighty fine daddy!
Da-da-dada-da! trickles a voice floating down the balcony filling up the kitchen and in turn my heart making me go all mushy. I hear happy shrieks and giggles follow your voice and I know upstairs there are three beings who are in a state of complete bliss in each other’s company. Sometimes you are with…