I am in the bedroom browsing through my phone when I hear Laddu’s voice. “Mommy, my glasses broke.” It takes a minute to register. “What do you mean broke? Broke?” The questions swirled. How? When? Who? In the end, I inspected the glasses, pronounced it dead. The lack of emotion, the lack of panic. The … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Jugaad
Yesterday was a bad day. It also was a good day. I started the day with excitement. I woke up brimming with ideas for book promotion. My brain was on overdrive, making lists, thinking of ways to promote the book. I logged into work and diligently prepared for a presentation in the afternoon. I had … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Good Days. Bad Days.
I am speaking on a work call, my palms animated as I to explain my position when I spy Laddu outside my study door. Beyond the mullioned door, she mimes something my preoccupied brain fails to comprehend. I shoo her away and adjust focus back to the matter on hand. The call ends and Laddu … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Wear Those Dresses
My watch buzzes and a familiar name pops up. My smile is huge, stretching from ear to ear. I reach for my phone and open the Messages app. It from Gigi, my daughters’ great grandmother of sorts. This time, the picture is of my newborn twins. A week ago, she sent me a picture of … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Openness When Confronting Mortality
It is a day into week three of the five of us at home. This week also marks the start of formal online school for all three children. While I struggled the past two weeks, the knowledge that all of it was optional let me operate a little guilt-free. This week they started easy. About … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Schooling Unschooling
Today caps two full weeks of the entire family staying home. We are settling into a pattern of sorts. If last week felt overwhelming because I was trying to be a conscientious employee and a full-time homemaker, this week was better because I decided perfection is impossible. I let things slide. I told myself it … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: Ambivalent
It is almost 6:00 pm. My mind is thinking about what to make for dinner. The IM on my work machine pings. The request is almost always polite, there is an illusion of choice. “I can do it,” I say. I want to be done with it as well. It is well past 7:00 pm … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: The Elephant In The Room
I wake up sans alarm. My varied routine now has me logging into work with coffee, catching up on emails, working out and then scrambling to put breakfast before the slew of work calls start at 8:30 am. Saathi works at a steady pace until the children are up and then take over trying to … Continue reading COVID-19 Diaries: A New Normal
It started with a simple comment on Facebook. I had shared an interview between a brother and sister on race. This was from The Takeaway on NPR. My friend suggested I should be on it. I pitched the idea that I would like to talk to my twins' mother about race in the context of … Continue reading Going On Air With The Takeaway On NPR
The window over my sink lets in a mottled mix of sun and clouds. A grey sky putting up a good resistance to the Sun. I stand there rooting for the Sun and smiling a goofy smile. I sip on my coffee and reach for my phone. I scroll through my pictures selecting randomly. Each … Continue reading The Very Many Firsts
"I can't believe foreigners are in our apartment!" "Won't they think India is dirty?" Her face wrinkles in concern as she eyes Ammu and Pattu as they soar on the squeaky swings. I look at them too and answer the girl in front of me with questions of my own. We trade replies and she … Continue reading Little People Problems
We lay across from each other, half reclined, bodies settled in a comfortable nooks as we traded quips, exchanged parenting hacks and talked about our lives. The clock neared midnight and I half expected her to turn into a pumpkin and the weekend to be a particularly pleasant dream from which I was waking. A … Continue reading Of friends, food and fun
"Come and get me!" Ammani taunted as she stood a mere yards away from me, a white fabric frisbee in her hand. I sat panting after playing catch with Ammu and Pattu in the yard. "Am coming.." I yelled even as I heaved my heavy frame and went lumbering after her. I felt my tummy … Continue reading Letting go
Plate in hand with pure white curd rice, I hesitated a moment between the curried vegetable and tomato thokku and helped myself to a generous helping of the pickle. As I ate taking care to keep the white of the curd rice unsullied by color, I was reminded of my Appa. "He used to love … Continue reading Linked by loss
Waking up with a splitting headache, I downed amma's kaapi and an Advil to boot. Dressed for the snow, I waited for my brother to show up to get a ride to the local school where I had abandoned my car late last night. Driving up as I glimpsed my car a wave of emotions … Continue reading My Car. My Baby.
Watching the election results trickle in and like magic just past the 11:00 hour, the screen on my TV flash "Barack Obama elected the 44th President of the United States", I could feel goosebumps on my skin. Sure was a historic moment. Not so much for the race part. Yes it does matter but for … Continue reading Yes! We Can!!
Walking down the corridor that leads to my classroom, I passed several of my new classmates. Smiling vaguely and waving Hi I reached and found ‘my’ seat unoccupied in the second to last row of the room. Finding my teammate M already there, I heaved a sigh of relief. She was one person I did … Continue reading Awkward Pauses
Hopefully the last of diary like posts but wanted to put this one as a recap of the past couple of days for myself to read later as well and think "Well! I survived that!.." All Saturday saw our group huddled in our conference room laptops popped open, heaps of printouts spread on the table, … Continue reading All done!
Day two went past in a blur. Mostly closeted in a room with my teammates trying to outwit other teams as we analyzed their moves and plotted ours. As the clock pushed 8:00 PM, I had no intention of getting home. My teammates however, had a distance to go and promised to meet back next … Continue reading Day two – recap
At 5:00 PM Wednesday evening my stomach was in knots. I walked past the door to the university a couple of times scoping the place out and checking to see if anyone was in early. The smell of mayonnaise hit my nose. We were supposed to show up at 5:30 PM for our Orientation. I … Continue reading Initial impressions
I must have badgered K before we left to work. I tried different shirts on before I found one that I felt comfortable in and one that could pass off as business casuals. One of the downsides of working for a company that advocates casual dressing for its employees is that I have no clue … Continue reading Do I look professional?