Beating The Blues, Tomorrow.

I walk in after dropping my youngest daughter at daycare. I see evidence of the morning rush near the shoe rack. Shoes strewn all over. I am tempted to put them back in order but I move on. I open the door only to stumble on a half naked doll by the cedar chest housing … Continue reading Beating The Blues, Tomorrow.

Gray days

I gently lock the double glass doors behind me and linger just a second longer taking in your weary eyes, shaggy hair and the air of resignation about you. I lean over the sofa to kiss soft heads good-bye before scanning the room a last time as I close the door behind me. I sit … Continue reading Gray days

Blue without you

Not you really but the you I want you to be. Confusing enough? Sometimes it occurs to me that I miss the person even when they are physically near me. Because you see my imagined version of them is different from the real person in flesh and blood. I airbrush the imperfections, focus on the … Continue reading Blue without you

Life is whizzing past…

Ever get that feeling that you are caught on the median with vehicles flying past both ways wondering if the pace will ever let up leaving you with space to cross? I've felt that way for a couple of days now. I feel like everything is flying past me and I have to catch up … Continue reading Life is whizzing past…

Hope and Grief – Twin emotions

* Not suitable if you are looking for something feel good. Folding a humongous pile of clothes my mind wanders in a thousand scattered directions. The muted volume of the TV murmurs in the background. I take pause and notice every detail around me. In the mellow yellow glow of the recessed lighting everything looks … Continue reading Hope and Grief – Twin emotions

On a day like today

As I look at the clock and realize the week is almost at the end, I feel immeasurable relief. The week that went past has been busy, taxing mentally and very challenging. I enjoyed working but was drained at the end of the day. Classes started this week and the two professors that teach this … Continue reading On a day like today

Feeling blue

This week has been strangely restless. I feel this acute sense of aging and life rushing past me. I feel caught between feeling regrets for the things that can't be and an indifference to what lies ahead. While I know this is just in my head sometimes it begs of me to be written somewhere. … Continue reading Feeling blue

The Magic of Kohls.

No. I am not talking of the retail giant. This weekend K and I were invited to a puja at a friend's house. There was to be some chanting followed by bhajans. It has been a while since I was part of a group prayer and I was looking forward to it. Saturday also being … Continue reading The Magic of Kohls.

Linked by loss

Plate in hand with pure white curd rice, I hesitated a moment between the curried vegetable and tomato thokku and helped myself to a generous helping of the pickle. As I ate taking care to keep the white of the curd rice unsullied by color, I was reminded of my Appa. "He used to love … Continue reading Linked by loss

Writing prompts

Each day as I sip Kaapi, shower or drive to work, my mind is looking for bloggable topics. Incidents that embed themselves into my brain. Some days I get lucky like Tuesday when I got stuck in the snow. Some other days, there is nothing eventful happening. Then one day I get lucky. Browsing randomly … Continue reading Writing prompts

Waiting

Sometimes, I wake up in the morning with the feeling that I am waiting for life to happen. Waiting for the year to end. Waiting for family to visit. Waiting to visit India. Waiting for a friend to call. Waiting for the dream job. Waiting for the family to be complete. An eternal series of … Continue reading Waiting