These days I am often on YouTube following my favorite astrologers as they talk craft, offer insights and sometimes do mundane predictions. I am fascinated by this science. I always have been. Numerology, Palm reading, Chart reading, Psychics and the occult have interested me. I have googled paranormal phenomenon, out of body experiences, near death experiences and tried my hand at Ouija boards over the course of my life.
Today, I heard a talk by my teacher on spirituality that resonated so much with me. Over the past two decades, I have often pontificated on Spirituality. I have squarely pegged myself as a “spiritual not religious” person. I have struggled to make sense of my beliefs. The ritualism of my childhood is familiar but it does not resonate at a primal level. Meditation and yoga are things I find intimidating.
I love walks. I truly love watching the Sun and the Moon. One of the things I will never forget from a long-ago trip to the mountains of New Hampshire is watching the stars standing in a place with very little ambient light. I felt insignificant. I felt like I could stand on tip toe and touch the stars. The whole of our galaxy just hung from the sky, tantalizing and achingly beautiful. That moment is something I want to revisit sometime in the future.
Today, I had an epiphany.
Spiritual but not religious is okay but I have no skin in the game. If I do, I have not recognized it for what it is. I am a reflective person. I write. I process my life in solitude. I enjoy spending time with myself and pondering on rhetorical questions. If I were to classify it as my spiritual practice, then I have a way to go, honing it, working on it and refining what it means to me.
So, dear friends, tell me. Are you religious? Are you spiritual? Are you grappling with these questions like I am?
What are the things you do on a regular basis to nurture that connection with your soul?