Birthday, Musings

Done, dusted and put away

I check my phone one last time before I call it a day. Washing up before bed, I stand in front of the mirror, the pendant snug against my throat, winking at me. I smile as I hum and wrap myself in fleece. The wishes have been pouring in over the phone, on Facebook, on […]

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Christmas, Musings

Wishlist For Santa

I trudge wearily upstairs, a measuring cup with 2 tsp medicine in it. Pattu looks at me, her cheeks red with fever. She gulps down the medicine as she has been doing the past three days and washes it down with a sip of water. I tuck her back in and get back to the […]

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Musings, Year End, Year in Review

Year In Review

As 2015 draws to a close, I set time aside for my annual ritual. I scan each month starting with January and realize it has been an eventful year. The brutal cold, mountains of snow and being stuck at home marked the beginning of the year. With the spring thaw came birthdays, dresses, yard work […]

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Adoption, Musings

I want to adopt a child. Where do I start?

Every once in a while, I hear from friends of friends, random strangers and acquaintances as they mull the prospect of adoption. Some have done their research and their questions have to do mostly about process. Some begin at the very beginning and are looking for resources to read. Then there are the few that […]

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Movie, Musings, Reflections

India’s Daughter – More questions than answers

India’s Daughter, the documentary that was the eye of a political storm earlier this year showed up on my Netflix selections. I had dithered when it originally was released on YouTube. Crimes against women, rape especially disturbs me deeply. Perhaps, it is the extremely personal nature of the crime or the fact that it is primarily […]

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NaNoWriMo

My NaNoWriMo Experience

Each year, thousands of people around the world commit to writing 1667 words each day for the entire month of November. The idea behind that being, you will end up with a 50,000 word manuscript in one month. For years, I have been toying with the idea of writing. I kept telling myself I will […]

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Laddu, Musings

Of banoons, pencens and cheese

“Thanni” she says as she points to her water bottle. “Pencen” she says as she holds her chubby hand for a pencil. “Cheese” she says as she takes a bowl from the cabinet and walks purposefully to her high chair. She notices me taking a picture, angles her head and says “Cheese”. Her vocabulary is […]

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Musings, Writing

Stirrings of doubt

It arrives impersonally, in the mail. “Not a fit for us,” “Not suitable for our current publication schedule,” “Too heavy for us”. Some trickle in couched in comforting words “You are good but this is not you,” “Go back to the drawing board”. “Start over”. I sit and stare at the words on the screen, […]

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Birthday, Musings, Surprise

Gifts of Kindness

I rush back from my annual physical to be on time for our traditional Girls’ Night Out at our development. Over the past couple of years, it has become a tradition I cherish. It gives me a disconnect from home, from the constant physicality of raising a toddler. I tend to settle down, eat my […]

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Musings, Tag

A tag – Five questions

Perspectives and Prejudices tagged me a while back and I am finally getting to it. One beauty product you would recommend to all your girlfriends Hmm! Wrong person to ask this considering I do not use any. I have an old bottle of Lakme eyeliner rattling around in my vanity drawer that I use on […]

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Chennai, Musings

Overwhelmed

I sit here on my sofa, Laddu sitting and ‘reading’ a book by my side. I have been glued to news, Facebook feed and Twitter for over 36 hours. I watch the city that was my home for a few years get innundated with water. Unprecedented rainfall. Lakes that are breached. Reservoirs that let out […]

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Christmas, Holiday, Musings

Holiday Cheer

“Can we set it up now? Please? Pretty please?” Pattu has been at it since early this week. The ‘it’ here referring to our small 4 ft Christmas tree. I stalled with “After Thanksgiving”, “I am tired!”, “Tomorrow?” till I could no longer do it. So, this afternoon after snacks, I gave her the nod […]

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Appa, Musings

Nine years of missing you

It’s been nine years since Appa passed away. The immediacy of the pain has gone, the edges dulled and rounded. Memories do not assail me at unexpected times. Yet, appa is in my thoughts every now and then. He slips into my dreams, looking just the way I remember him best, in his fifties. He […]

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Musings, Thanks, Thanksgiving, Writing

Plenty to be thankful for

Messages of thanks abound in the world that I inhabit. My facebook feed is filled with them. My children bring home art work featuring turkeys and adorable “I am thankful for …” messages. It is no surprise then that I am reflecting on the things that I am thankful for. Like most others, I am […]

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Dance, Musings, Parenting

Eating my words

I am on the floor, sitting on a padded mattress, Laddu sitting by me as I watch five girls, two of mine take positions on the dance floor. They are laughing and giggling as they figure out where each person needs to stand. The music begins and they groove, their arms and legs moving off […]

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