Dearest Kay and Cee,
We live in tumultuous times. Scan the newspaper, watch the news and it seems like heartwarming stories are few and far in between. We are reminded time and again how driven by narrow agendas and greed we are as a nation and as a people. I am pretty sure parents of every generation felt this way about the world they lived in. Yet we go on. Hoping for a better tomorrow than we found ourselves in today.
This past week, I was at the intersection and saw blue electric fire crackling on top of a power pole. Usually I would have given it a second look, convinced myself somebody else would have reported it and drove on. Somehow, having you both in my life has made me more empathetic, more vulnerable to what could be and I stopped and dutifully reported the incident to 911 before I drove on. Becoming your mother has made me more open to realizing there is more to life than after I pass. You both will still be around while I am not. It pushes me to be kinder, more involved and more believing of the fact that my actions impact the world I will leave you with.
From a skeptic who didn’t think much about throwing that empty glass jar and banana peel in the same trash bin, I now take a moment to wonder if something can be recycled, reused or returned to the earth in a harmless way. I am just a newbie on this path. I have ways to go before I feel I have done all I can to help. For someone who hated hand me downs growing up, I am shameless about asking for outgrown Halloween clothes or reusing the ones we got for you the year before. I know this may not work as you grow up and realize what I am doing. What is important though for me is to make sure your Appa and I instill in you a sense of respect for the earth we inhabit and tenderness for all creatures that surround us.
Yes. Being a mother does that to me. It makes me feel all mellow and capable of changing the world. One step at a time.
In love with being your Amma,