UL had this nice post on her blog that made me stop and think. Of course, any time there are questions posed I have to answer them. Answer I did but I was not comfortable putting it out there. Being someone who believes in compromise, I figured I would post it but make it password protected so only people who asked me could read. So, here you go!
1. What challenges do I need to resolve in life?
To go beyond being materialistic. By that I mean my eyes are always fixed on the next house, the next job, the next car and so on. K amazes me with his what I call ‘frog in the well’ mentality. Something I started out seeing as negative and now realize is a rare quality in a person. If I learn to be happy as is, that will be one huge challenge I have resolved.
2. What do I dislike about myself and would like to accept?
I dislike the fact that I crave approval. From family. From friends. I dislike the fact that I hardly say/write what I exactly think. There is an inborn prudishness in me that I wish I could unfetter.
If I can learn to accept this is who I am, perhaps I will not have as much resentment build within me?
3. Who do I need to forgive?
Myself. There are things in my mind that I take myself to task for. Have been taking myself to task for over a decade. I want to let go and be forgiving of myself and my actions.
4. What are my dreams and ambition?
My dream is to find something I love doing. I mean wake up and feel enthused about getting to work on it. The word ambition has a different meaning now. I like to think, my ambitions are to be the best mom I can. To be the best wife, friend, daughter, sibling, cousin … to the people around me. Let myself be and learn to take pride in whatever I have.
5. What talents and skills do I need to develop more fully?
Talents? Writing would be one. I know I enjoy expressing myself but more often than not, I lose steam midway. If I can learn to persevere and actually take time to edit and rewrite my thoughts I might someday be proud of my talent. As for skills that need developing they are too many to count.
6. What relationships do I want to develop more deeply?
None that I can think of. Relationships that matter to me are ones I have always prioritized.
Now, if you are still here and would like to answer these questions, please feel free to do so in the comments or email me. I am all ears!