These few years at my current workplace have been a sort of revelation to me. This has been my first ‘real’ workplace in the sense, I finally feel at home and have a sense of doing what I am most qualified to do. Not necessary what I do best though. The first year was rough. It meant unlearning a lot of old programming behaviors and learning new ones. It meant letting go of a different kind of work ethic to adopt a new one. As time passed, the changes seemed less of a bother and more of something I did without being conscious of it.
The past year however, saw me looking at myself with a different pair of eyes. In my patchy career spanning a decade and more, I have worked at many places, learned different kinds of skills and made tons of friends. This is the first time I am harboring ideas of putting down roots. Taking steps to differentiate myself. I go so far as to even dare to dream of a career path.
There has been this one recurrent idea swimming in my brain for a few weeks now. I realize I do best when people I look up to dare me to do better. It could be a casual remark in a meeting or a more formal one on one. Positive words spur me on like no other. When I realize inane things I do like co-ordinate group lunches or put together a checklist are seen as an indication of organizing skills, I am charged to develop that skill even if I do not have it in the first place. Positive reinforcement works wonders with me.
I am not sure why I am so surprised by this ‘finding’ of mine. It is almost like a light bulb going off in my head. I also wonder if that is why K sings praises of whatever food I make? In the hope that I will eventually get there?? 🙂
So, tell me. Have you had a light bulb moment?