** Mush Alert!
Yes. K is a year older. In the grand scheme of things, this is just a blip but considering my universe is largely inhabited by K, it is a huge deal 🙂
Birthdays make me anxious. I wonder about what gifts to buy from months ahead. I plan and plot in my head till D-Day and most years, do nothing at all. Like this year. How do you celebrate the birthday of someone who is your world? Cakes and gifts don’t seem to cut it. I sat in front of the computer my mind blank. I had no clue of what to say. Tongue-tied. If such a term exists for virtual wishes.
I realized it this morning. For years, I have wanted to celebrate his birthday as I wanted mine celebrated. It always fell short. As I started thinking of what he would want, the answer is stunning in its simplicity. Actually nothing at all. Just knowing he is loved and thought of with warmth is the best gift I can give him.
So K, I want you to know you are loved unconditionally. Even when you are rolling your eyes in disbelief at how I could put the cutting board away before it is sparking clean. I want you to know that I will be at your side when you need me. Whether it is for emotional strength or the actual physical presence. I want you to know that your birthdays are special to me for just by being born, you have changed my life immeasurably.
Happy Birthday my love! You are my world.