Off The Beaten Track
A peek into my mind.Parenting, Adoption, Reflections on Life
Apar of Random Ruminations had done this a while back. I was intrigued and wanted to see what I would come up with. Some surprised me as well. Anyways, here it is.
I am: beautiful in my eyes
I think: way too much
I know: I am loved
I have: an awesome set of friends
I wish: I pursue my dreams with the same fervor as I start out with
I hate: being stood up
I miss: my dad
I fear: being childless
I hear: silence in between words
I smell: coffee
I crave: intelligent company
I search: for the right words to say.
I wonder: what if I had lived in India
I regret: not knowing my mom in law
I love: attention
I ache: when I see people I care about in pain
I am not: as brave as I would like to be
I believe: in having faith
I dance: when no one is looking
I sing: never
I cry: more often than I would like to
I fight: rarely
I win: if I really put my mind to it.
I lose: when I am not convinced about what I am fighting for
I never: have issues saying sorry
I always: smile at strangers
I confuse: K with inconsistent messages
I listen: when I care
I can usually be found: at home
I am scared: of being lonely
I need: to be connected. (I mean email/phone)
I am happy about: the way I have shaped up as a person
I imagine: my life will have a happy ending
I tag: no one in particular
If any of you decide to do this, can you please let me know? I love reading such stuff. 🙂
I am wondering which ones surprised you? 🙂 and you wrote what I intended to for “I am scared:” but the moment when I did type mine in…I felt more scared of the worse that is in the offing for A and me 🙂
It does make one think a lot right? 🙂
You crave for something only when you haven’t had or have little of that thing you crave about.
With K at home, you don’t have to CRAVE for intelligent company (am i right??)
Laksh- enjoyed getting to know more about you…
It was interesting knowing more about you 🙂 – I shall take this up too – just give me a little time.
I was surprised about the “not singing” part – since you have learnt singing, I assumed you would at least sing around the house?
What were the ones that surprised you? Cos nothing surprised me, I was nodding as I went along – fitted perfectly for the person I know you as 🙂
nice knowing you more…
a few surprises but very nicely done…maybe i will take this up too..one of these days.
I am: a child of God and intensly spiritual
I think: life,the world and it’s people can be so beautiful at times
I know: There is a pattern for me to decipher and understand some day and that my personal God would always be there for me
I have: everything i have ever wanted always atleast for a little while
I wish: For nothing. Have grown out of wishing 😦
I hate: the murder and violation of my extremely pure love
I miss: my old innocent self that was less cynical
I fear: nothing any more.
I hear: the sound of my son’s giggles
I smell: coffee
I crave: kindred spirits
I search: stopped searching
I wonder: what if i had made different decisions ?
I regret: in having been a sentimental fool
I love: simplicity, truth and love
I ache: when I see people change and put on masks
I am not: as smart as I would like to be
I believe: in nothing or anyone any more
I dance: when i suddenly feel happy. Have danced all my life!
I sing: sometimes.
I cry: Not any more.
I fight: I dont fight. Might only for a cause.
I win: Most often that i deserve.
I lose: things that i would rather die than lose
I never: cease to stop caring
I always: believe any one who expresses kindness and pretends love
I confuse: People with my extreme confidence and extreme vulnerability
I listen: to every one always. I tune in faster so people think i don’t.
I can usually be found: at home or work.
I am scared: Snakes
I need: pampering
I am happy about: my work and my child
I imagine: i limit my imagination to my work. period
I tag: no one in particular
I relate to Srividya’s:
I hate: the murder and violation of my extremely pure love
I wonder: what if i had made different decisions ?
🙂
@Apar: I was surprised that I considered myself beautiful or that I regretted not knowing my mom in law. When I looked at the starter, the words just flew out my fingers.
@Tamil Paiyan: True. Just that K and I hardly have any generic conversations. Its usually the two of plonked in front of the TV. Me typing away on the laptop. “Stimulating” conversations are rare but cherished.
@Mitr: 🙂 Hope the increased knowledge was not a turn off!
@Bavani: Singing has never been my forte and I learnt early on that singing aloud meant being teased to death by my bro. Never picked up the courage after that.
@Akay: 🙂 Guess we already finished this conversation over chat.
@naan: Like I checked with Mitr, hope it was not a turn off.
@UL: Which ones surprised you? Am curious
@Srividya: Love you. Thanks for sharing.
@Apar: I know. 😦
Well, I know you are beautiful and I think you did mention sometime that you wish you knew your mil….so they were not really surprises to me! 🙂