As the timer showed 45 mins, I was disappointed. Quite unusual for me because I usually look forward to stepping off the treadmill and getting on with the rest of the day. Today was a little out of usual. This new year I have begun with renewed resolve to make walking a part of my daily routine. So, from the beginning of this year I have been testing myself in slow subtle ways. Like walking at 3.1 miles instead of the 3.0 miles I usually walk on. Or upping the incline to 1.5 instead of 1.0 I tried the day before. Slow sure steps.
Over the past week I have realized any more than 3.1 I no longer feel comfortable with the speed. (No snickering please 🙂 ) So instead I have been toying with the incline. As I touched the 3.0 miles and 3.0 incline today I was hoping to see the calorimeter touch the magic figure of 300 in the 45 mins I am on it. It almost was as the timer touched 45. I pushed on knowing I was going to be a tad late for everything else I had planned today. But the sense of victory was enormous.
I have been thinking ever since. Is this not what really pushes us? The force from within. It does not matter how much my doctor says or my friend says. It is how much I want to. If I want to lose weight I can. If I want to quit smoking I can. If I want to do my Masters, I can. Its all in the “I“.
No matter how many books we read or how many people share their experiences, it is when “I” realize it, that it feels like the beginning of a new day. A new dawn.