Its sitting there, right above me on that shelf that houses my snack collection. Taunting me, testing my resolve. I picked it up yesterday morning with my morning coffee at the training place. Playfully I told myself lets see how much you can hold out. Put off opening up the shiny plastic wrap it came in. This was around 10:00 AM yest. Since I already had bread in the morning I told myself I would eat it if I really got hungry. To push myself I even placed it right in front of the monitor where I could see it even if I turned away from the side of my eye.
Lunch came and went, I had my evening tea with wafers which looked very inviting. The muffin lay at my desk. I came back and thought.. if only I hadn’t had those wafers..
Class over at 3:30, I packed my stuff, was half inclined to put the muffin back wrapper and all in the basket by the coffee bar. Stood for a moment half decided and brought it back to work with me. Told myself around 5:00 if I am hungry I will permit myself to devour that sinfully delicious looking thing.
Back at work I put it away in the shelf and actually managed to forget about it. Today morn back at my desk I was blissfully engrossed in work and at 11:00 a bulb glowed in my head. I swear it did! I almost reached out for it and remembered it was close to lunch time. If I ate that danged thing now I would mess up the rest of my day.
So, it sits there teasing me while I eat my sambhar sadham with beans curry. I am already thinking of the 3:30 PM coffee break.